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this graphic design class might be one of the greatest classes i will ever take. 

— 6 months ago

I woke up this morning to find out that my dog can’t walk anymore. My mom and I assumed that she had done something to her back and took her to the vet so that she could get some pain meds. What I didn’t prepare myself for was a trip to the doggie ER, where the vet told us it’s very probable that she’d need a $6,000 surgery to walk again. Oh ya, and that we’d have to leave her overnight for some tests. As my mom and I scraped ourselves together and drove home the vet called us back saying that they’d been observing her more and that it most likely isn’t related to her back, it’s more likely neurological. A.k.a. brain tumor. To which my mom told me, “we have a rule. We just can’t if it’s cancer.” So here I am, I went from oh shit my dog looks kind of off today to am I going to have to say goodbye tomorrow. Life kind of fucking sucks right now. 

It’s weird. I knew she was getting old and I knew there would come a time where I’d have to prepare myself for something like this, but I’m not ready. I know it’s kind of silly to get this worked up over an animal, but they really are family. Lizzie watched me grow up, she knows all my friends, it’s like I’m loosing a part of my childhood. Like that dog has been there for me when I’ve broken down on several different occasions, they just know when you’re upset and I can’t explain it, but they always know how to react. I leave for school in three days… and I don’t know what’s going to happen. I don’t know if I can say goodbye. 

Despite wanting to write this to help me feel better, I also just wanted to give a shout out to those people out there who tell you that it’s gonna be ok. There are just some people that have genuinely good souls. So thank you to those people that have made me smile today and helped me realize that no matter what, life is going to suck sometimes, but it’s going to be ok. You keep me centered. I cannot thank you enough for just making me smile today. 

— 11 months ago with 6 notes

i really envy people who verbalize their emotions. actually i’m sure that gets annoying, but in the end i feel like it does a lot more good than bad. i feel like it’s really obvious when i get upset, but it’s so hard for me to tell people what’s bothering me. it makes me really appreciate those few people you meet who can just look at you and know wassup. i don’t know where i’m going with this. i wish i had a pair of rose colored glasses. 

— 1 year ago
requiem for a dream

is one of the best movies I’ve ever seen. It made me think a lot about life afterwards, which in my books, makes it a good movie. It’s so dark, and fucked up, but beautiful. Haha. I sound ridiculous. But if you’re ever looking for a good (I don’t want to use the word artsy because that makes me wanna vomit) offbeat movie, watch Requiem for A Dream. I promise you will not be disappointed! WARNING: towards the end it gets pretty gruesome. you may or may not cry/want to throw up.  

— 1 year ago
humansofnewyork:

"You know the scariest drug I ever did?""What’s that?""Sobriety. I tried that shit, and suddenly I realized that my girlfriend was insane and all my friends were assholes." 

humansofnewyork:

"You know the scariest drug I ever did?"
"What’s that?"
"Sobriety. I tried that shit, and suddenly I realized that my girlfriend was insane and all my friends were assholes." 

— 1 year ago with 11989 notes
usagov:

Image description: Senior Airman Thomas Hole is welcomed home by his son after returning from his deployment in May.
Father’s Day is on Sunday, and we’re wishing all the dads out there a very happy Father’s Day.
Photo by Scott Poe, U.S. Air Force.

usagov:

Image description: Senior Airman Thomas Hole is welcomed home by his son after returning from his deployment in May.

Father’s Day is on Sunday, and we’re wishing all the dads out there a very happy Father’s Day.

Photo by Scott Poe, U.S. Air Force.

— 1 year ago with 131 notes
humansofnewyork:

“Don’t smoke cigarettes.”

humansofnewyork:

“Don’t smoke cigarettes.”

— 1 year ago with 1603 notes

Sometimes life hits you hard. Sometimes it affects you directly, sometimes it affects you indirectly. Sometimes you get great news. Sometimes you get news that gives you a lump in the back of your throat. Whatever it may be, the hardest moments we have to go through tend to make us stronger, better people. It forces you to look at your life and reflect on the choices you make everyday. Are you living the life you want to live? 

I have definitely faced a good amount of loss and tragedy, but no more than anyone else will face throughout their lifetime. It sucks. Despite all of the tears, the anger, and the “why”s, you get a chance to tell every minute thing in your life that is stressing you out , to fuck off. It’s a rare moment, at least it is for me. Tragedy gives you a chance to re-evaluate the things in your life that are truly important to you. For me these things are the health and happiness of my friends and my family. Because seeing the people I love most happy and healthy, living their lives to the fullest makes me happy. 

There’s no good way to deal with tragedy. It will always hurt, no matter how fresh or old the wound is. Sometimes it’s unexpected, and sometimes it’s a longtime coming. I think for me one of the hardest parts about growing up is realizing that some of the worst shit happens to some of the best people. So, cherish the people you love. Do the things you want to do. Be with the people who make you the happiest.

Life is far too short.  

— 1 year ago with 2 notes
humansofnewyork:

When we finished the shot, I glanced down at the photo and said: “I could hug you right now.”
“No you couldn’t,” she said, “I’m a fierce ass bitch.” 
(San Francisco, CA)

humansofnewyork:

When we finished the shot, I glanced down at the photo and said: “I could hug you right now.”

“No you couldn’t,” she said, “I’m a fierce ass bitch.” 

(San Francisco, CA)

— 1 year ago with 6733 notes
humansofnewyork:

“It’s symbolizes my family tree.” “So do the clocks represent the finite nature of life?” “I don’t know, dude. I got it when I was 18.”
(San Francisco, CA)

humansofnewyork:

“It’s symbolizes my family tree.”
“So do the clocks represent the finite nature of life?”
“I don’t know, dude. I got it when I was 18.”

(San Francisco, CA)

— 1 year ago with 1405 notes
humansofnewyork:

“Do you need the cane?” “I need it when I’m wearing these shoes.”

humansofnewyork:

“Do you need the cane?”
“I need it when I’m wearing these shoes.”

— 1 year ago with 2077 notes

So I’m going to a Harry Potter vs. Game of Thrones theme party this weekend, Syracuse is in the final four, Ke$ha is coming to the Dome, the sun has finally reappeared, I just got a theta trucker hat, and my grades are a lot better than I thought. Things are looking up for ole kturtle. 

— 1 year ago with 2 notes
Best Study Music

Young punk radio and 90s alternative/grunge radio on pandora really do it for me. Lolz try it out sometime. Especially the 90s station. My mamma was so lucky I wasn’t a teenager in the 90s. I would have been such a grunge rat. Wow ok I think I’ve exhausted every form of procrastination I can think of. I guess I’ll start writing my essay…  

— 1 year ago with 1 note
bergdorfgoodman:

Altuzarra’s warrior shoes. 

bergdorfgoodman:

Altuzarra’s warrior shoes. 

— 1 year ago with 163 notes